I hate trying to figure out what to major in. My majors sound like complete bullshit majors. You know, the majors people pick cause they need a major. I mean, seriously, what the hell, sociology and biology? I feel like I need something more hardcore, because I feel like I have to prove something, if to no one but myself. Saying, “Oh, I’m a soc major” makes me sound like an airhead, almost, especially at this school. How do I tell people that this is what I’m really interested in? That this encompasses the majority of my academic passions? How can I tell people that I want to take this degree and, I don’t know, change the world? I feel naive and idealistic, but really, truly; this is what I want to do.
“Sociology works on the basic assumption that the sociologist will take his findings and use them to better our society”. And yeah, that’s what I want to do. How naive of me. But yeah. That’s it; I’m going to change the world. My name is Maria, and I will change the world before fading into oblivion and dying alone and unknown. My name is Maria, and I am melodramatic.
And while I’m on the subject of bullshit majors, I hate, with a deathly passion, the people who are here not because they actually want to learn. You know, the people who are here mainly because it’s easier to get a job after you get a degree, and because it’s like a 4 year long party or something. I hate it. Goddamnit, you’re here to learn. Stop smoking, stop drinking and study. The educated people can change the world, but not if they’re all potheads and drunkards. Not if they’re apathetic.
And as long as I’m talking about hating people, shallow people kind of piss me off. (Oh, the irony in that statement.) I like interesting people; such a shame that I haven’t met many. I want less friends and more rivals.
Maybe I care too much about what other people think. Maybe I should just do my thing and go on with life.
I should stop ranting and go to sleep. Good night.
(Damnit, I’m hungry again.)