a recipe for disaster

it hurts. it hurts so fucking much.

i cant do it

Just a note, this is going to be just another emo bitchery blog. With pretentious photos of ugly shit at awkward angles and all.

I hate trying to figure out what to major in. My majors sound like complete bullshit majors. You know, the majors people pick cause they need a major. I mean, seriously, what the hell, sociology and biology? I feel like I need something more hardcore, because I feel like I have to prove something, if to no one but myself. Saying, “Oh, I’m a soc major” makes me sound like an airhead, almost, especially at this school. How do I tell people that this is what I’m really interested in? That this encompasses the majority of my academic passions? How can I tell people that I want to take this degree and, I don’t know, change the world? I feel naive and idealistic, but really, truly; this is what I want to do.

“Sociology works on the basic assumption that the sociologist will take his findings and use them to better our society”. And yeah, that’s what I want to do. How naive of me. But yeah. That’s it; I’m going to change the world. My name is Maria, and I will change the world before fading into oblivion and dying alone and unknown. My name is Maria, and I am melodramatic.
And while I’m on the subject of bullshit majors, I hate, with a deathly passion, the people who are here not because they actually want to learn. You know, the people who are here mainly because it’s easier to get a job after you get a degree, and because it’s like a 4 year long party or something. I hate it. Goddamnit, you’re here to learn. Stop smoking, stop drinking and study. The educated people can change the world, but not if they’re all potheads and drunkards. Not if they’re apathetic.

And as long as I’m talking about hating people, shallow people kind of piss me off. (Oh, the irony in that statement.) I like interesting people; such a shame that I haven’t met many. I want less friends and more rivals.

Maybe I care too much about what other people think. Maybe I should just do my thing and go on with life.

I should stop ranting and go to sleep. Good night.

(Damnit, I’m hungry again.)

So, I got up a front page up. Whoo.
I have clearly been watching too much House. My suitemate has been a bit sick, with a terrible sore throat and everything. It’s bad enough that she can’t swallow. I just heard her say, “My neck hurts so much”, and then realized that when I got back, all the blinds were closed. My conclusion? OH MY GOD, MENINGITIS. But then I realized she doesn’t have a fever or chills, and she’s still walking fine. I am probably too much of a House geek. Even so… *proceeds to Lysol all my belongings*

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Classes this quarter:
General Chemistry
Short Calculus
Contemporary Social Issues of Asian Americans
Social Research
Critical Reasoning

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Will be uploading notes for all these classes. Keep in mind that the original lectures are copyright the professors. Though these notes have basis in lecture, they are mostly still my own interpretation which also draws upon course readings. The notes are mine, and are being uploaded under a Creative Commons license.

Going back to Davis tomorrow.

Apparently, I didn’t learn my lesson from last quarter at all. Oh well. I shall become a social recluse and study hard.